Thursday, November 20, 2008

Grammy's Been Thinking (Oh My)

I was thinking that I am way more concerned over my grandchildren than I feel that I was with my own children. Are they gaining too much weight, are they not gaining enough weight, are they doing what they are suppose to be doing for their age, are they too cold, are they too hot, is that toy safe for them to play with and on and on it goes.

I was asking my Mom if she thought she worried more as a grandma than she did as a Mom and she said that she did. Is it because we are so busy when our kids are young that we don't have time to worry so much and now that our kids are grown we have more time? Maybe we just expect even more out of our grandchildren than we did their parents. Or maybe we didn't do something right with our kids and now the negativity of that action will affect our grandchildren. Or could it just be that as we age we have just forgotten the stress and just focus on the good parts of raising children?

I could probably go on and on and psychoanalyze myself all day. But I better stop now. I might come up with something specifically about myself that I fear may one day show up in my grandchildren and that wouldn't be good. Or worse yet, something from their grandpa, Mom, Dad, great grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, etc. I better stop, I am really scaring myself now.